blue-d.

2005-12-10T20:42:00.000-08:00

hello i finally started my portfolio. so far i have 3 unedited essays. i need 3 more.

and hols arent that boring now since i make myself busy with my essays, com games and being a professional couch potato.

2005-12-06T04:10:00.000-08:00

hello HSBC's tree top walk almost killed me. we took like, 3 and a half hours finish the trail and walk back to our car. and no one told me that the road was uneven and paved with rocks, or that there would be monkeys sitting in the middle of the path. and i had to piggy-back my brother almost half the time throughout.
and not to mention walking with grandparents. i mean, they had to walk the whole 3 hours with me.
i saw a snake! i thought it was a centipede then it slithered away and it was long so it's a snake.

im never going there again.

2005-12-05T00:49:00.000-08:00

hello today was a very unfortunate day which i shall not elaborate on.

i hate today.

2005-11-30T18:20:00.000-08:00

hello.

"i shall start my portfolio today."
was what ive been telling myself every day for the past one month. and one month later i havent started on it yet. wheeeee. this portfolio thingy is seriously sucking all the fun out of my hols. not that my hols are fun. i mean, im worrying about my portfolio every day.

i havent been playing the guitar much these two days. maybe it's because of my poor injured finger. the fretting one. i havent been skipping too cos i dont want another injured finger HAHA. i was skipping the other day with a handle-less skipping rope (i think my bro spoiled the handles) and the rope was rubbing against my finger but i couldnt care less until finally it hurt.

i promise i will start my portfolio today. ~~will be what i will say tommorrow~~ i will start today yes.

2005-11-30T05:11:00.000-08:00

hello. im back again. im so bored i decided to blog. oh that rhymes.

it'll be 1st of dec tmr, and i'll have exactly one month to do my CAP portfolio. one month isnt a lot of time for someone to do a portfolio fyi. WHAT THE HELL HAVE I BEEN DOING THE LAST ONE MONTH?!

anw im bored because i stay at home most of the time. which is not good because if im at home i'll have no excuse to not do my portfolio. and speaking of that, i realised there's a major problem with me- i only realise how ~~eww/blehhh~~ not up to standard my essay is when i finish it, which is one hour later. and this is bad, cos i dont want to do rs next year.

im not as lucky and privileged as some people. im not going anywhere for vacation unlike those lucky and privileged people who get to go ~~to nice places like australia or hong kong etc~~ travelling.

staying at home and writing chinese essays-how interesting!

2005-09-28T05:49:00.000-07:00

heyyy.
i find blogging a hassle.
thinking of putting away blogging for a while.
like last time.
but nvm.

anw thanks ppl(: seriously i didnt mean what i said! really. i told you when im pissed i can even find fault with a GUITAR. ok. and ermender you can say whatever you want lah. i dont mind because i love ~~your guitar~~you.
i love guitar i love guitar.
anw today's jap eoy was ok. wasnt as difficult as i'd expected. hope i can do well... i need my jap to pull up my gpa. cos im only ok with chinese and jap. the rest of the subs are hopeless. so yeah.
maybe i shld not play the guitar too often. i think im like what, hogging it? sorry yuhui sorry ermender sorry lynnette. i just love it too much and i dont have one at home and i'll give anything for a guitar.
so yep yeps i shall not hog it. from ~~next year~~tmr onwards.

2005-09-27T18:00:00.000-07:00

hello(:
apologies for whatever i said in my previous post.

1) peiying wrote some things that apparently didnt sound like her and apparently hurt people. state, with evidence from the text from lynnette's blog, the reason. ( 5 marks) [note: there is no L5 answer cos there's nothing you can cross refer X)]

answer: the reason peiying wrote things that didnt sound like her and hurt ppl was mainly because of her temper. based on contextual knowledge, peiying has a bad temper and tends to find fault in every single thing when she is pissed. and the main reason that causes her to be this pissed is because her good friend and ex table-mate was pissed with her and she thought she was daoing her so she became pissed and also because she didnt have a chance to explain everything. in points 1 and 3, the people whom peiying said about might not mean anybody because one, she did not state anybody. two, she comes into contact with A LOT of people so it may not be what you think.
also, i can infer that peiying wishes everyone to forget about whatever she wrote because it was the devillic devil inside her brain that caused her to write whatever she wrote. also, i can infer that peiying is sorry and wishes to apologise to everyone. from the statement, " sorry ppl i wrote what i wrote cos i was in a pissed-ish mood and i dont know why but i just felt sad and down and depressed. ~~it's not even pms yet~~ yeah so apologies. i didnt mean what i said. again i know." it is observed that she wishes for the forgiveness of everyone.

whee. so yeah. jap oral was crappy. weird me got a mental block at the END of the oral test. i just couldnt rmb how to say thank you. it was supposed to be doumoaligatou gozaimashita. but i just said the first half. oh wells
i know i shouldnt be blogging but. i need to clear some things. yeah ok. and vera yuen was nice for once. she asked me how was my oral. can you believe it. i cannot.
and lynnette dont kope my blog entry. at least delete away the points. you know how many people go read your blog during compy studsy. i dont want ppl to read that's why i wrote on my dead blog. thanks. koping = offended tkpy *grasps chest (the heart place) and crumbles onto the floor and hit's her head and dies*

i'm back

2005-09-22T15:44:00.000-07:00

hi. i'm back.
after abt 3 months.
so many things have happened during this period when i didnt blog. pts, tests, open house and encore-the most memorable one.
yeah so i'm back. not because i've decided to break my promise but.. it's just that i have things to say that i dont want to tell ppl right in the face in case they give that response again. i just totally CANNOT stand it. i have made 10 realisations:-

-----------------------deleted-----------------------------------------------------------------

2005-06-27T23:14:00.000-07:00

so sianxx can. my legs are aching like hell. they always do when i'm tired or sth.
can still remember the talk i had at the hall during CLE today. it was nice lah. some ppl just seem to be good in anything. and some ppl just seem to be the opposite. like me. i am a total failure mann.
i WAS trying desperately to cheong my book report. loved doing the chinese one. although the end product sucks but oh wells. i enjoyed the process. yay saw RGS on TV for the 2nd time.
i havent done anything about my aesthetics. it's too late to bring my stuff downstairs and take out everything and start ironing my stuff right? so shall see what i can do in school. tomorrow will be a very rushy and rubbishy day mann. i assure you that.
well. holz are over. bye bye nights when i can sleep peacefully without worrying about not completing my work. my holz mentality was : well, there's still tomorrow. it's like during the holz when i go to sleep i just sleep and not worry about anything like hw undone or sth. now school's back and i bet i'll go to sleep every night worrying about this and that and then finally falling asleep and then when i wake up in the middle of the night i'll suddenly recall all the hw that i havent done and then i'll start wishing i'll die so i wont have to go to school tomorrow.
why am i so slacky. i did some reflections. i realised tt i am a lousy student mann. i suck.

2005-06-19T12:22:00.000-07:00

ahaha i went to the zoo yesterday. yes the zoo. but i went there cos my brother wanted to go there. not cos i love the zoo and all the animals in it. no offence but i dont like going to the zoo. there's a lot of mosquitoes there, probably cos of the animals. and lots of spiders too. and i think i've been there a hundred times. the zoo seemed a fun place to go years ago but no no not now. haha. anw i went there and i saw the animals. not very nice or exciting to watch cos they were stoning down there. but i think that's what they do most of the time. and i try to avoid any zoo keepers carrying snakes and they allow u to touch them. *shivers* my brother and sister touched one snake. totally gross mann. but it was brave of them. anw i think my brother didnt even realise that he was touching a real life snake that could well swallow him in one gulp. i think he didnt even know the snake was real. haha.
ok enough abt the zoo haha. yeah i managed to finish one question for the history SBQ. how amazing.

2005-06-15T16:00:00.000-07:00

aargh. i just CANNOT sit down to do my homework properly. hmmpf. i've been procrastinating like hell these 2 weeks. there's so so many things to do-- homework, book reports, PT, revision, and whatnot. *growl* and i still havent got the SPM thingo done. cos i was lazy. yeah.
u tell me what to do? haiz. and the choir medley scores. haiz. i oso never learn music. i'm stuck lah. no no dont say i'm hardworking or nice or sth cos i learn my songs at home. no way. i learn them cos i cant read the pitch and i NEED to get the tune. lalala. i'm stuck i'm stuck. i dunno when i have to raise the note a semitone higher or sth. later i sing wrongly how. anw i always sing the wrong pitch one lah.
i learnt sth new haha. that there's sth called bass clef besides treble clef. haha. i was just wondering why in the alto lines in colours of the wind the pitch is so high. i didnt know it was actually bass clef. haha. how stupid i am.
ok i am going to bathe and then force myself to do my homework.
my target:
to get 2 homework done by today.
but i noe it'll never work out. none of my goals or watsoever works out anw.
oh yeah haha i managed to borrow some books for the english book reviews yesterday in the library when i went back to school to do lit project. i found 'tuesdays with morrie'. i heard it's nice. and i think it's quite nice too when i browsed thru it. haha.
ok gotta go off to bathe (i'm so hot) and then i'll force myself to do my homework. no matter what. i have to at least get some work done today and get started or else i can guarantee u that if i dont start now i'll never start until the night before school reopens.

2005-06-13T13:01:00.000-07:00

You think I'm an ignorant savage
And you've been so many places
I guess it must be so
But still I cannot see
If the savage one is me
Now can there be so much that you don't know?
You don't know ...

You think you own whatever land you land on
The Earth is just a dead thing you can claim
But I know every rock and tree and creature
Has a life, has a spirit, has a name

You think the only people who are people
Are the people who look and think like you
But if you walk the footsteps of a stranger
You'll learn things you never knew you never knew

Have you ever heard the wolf cry to the blue corn moon
Or asked the grinning bobcat why he grinned?
Can you sing with all the voices of the mountains?
Can you paint with all the colors of the wind?
Can you paint with all the colors of the wind?

Come run the hidden pine trails of the forest
Come taste the sunsweet berries of the Earth
Come roll in all the riches all around you
And for once, never wonder what they're worth

The rainstorm and the river are my brothers
The heron and the otter are my friends
And we are all connected to each other
In a circle, in a hoop that never ends

How high will the sycamore grow?
If you cut it down, then you'll never know
And you'll never hear the wolf cry to the blue corn moon

For whether we are white or copper skinned
We need to sing with all the voices of the mountains
We need to paint with all the colors of the wind

You can own the Earth and still
All you'll own is Earth until
You can paint with all the colors of the wind

-Pocahontas-

2005-06-11T10:48:00.000-07:00

lalala... woke up quite early today. then ate the same thing i eat for breakfast everyday. then watched a show on discovery channel about mummies. one was 1750 years-old. and then a family of 4 mummies was discovered. they think they were murdered or sth.
anw... oh about the report book thingo i told my mum about it last night. so clever of me. i thought she was in a good mood, or rather, not in a bad mood so i told her and she was ok about it. although i dont think she really understood what the report was saying. as in she only commented on the grade like A+ or B+ but i dont think she noticed the marks. haha. anw my dad is returning from china today. yay. then finally we can get the spm thingo done. i dont think my mum knows how to get the thing settled so i think i'll just leave it to dad. and i heard mr lim is 'fully booked'. haha no as in all the time slots with him are booked. i wanted to book a time slot with him cos my english sucks but oh wells. the mean for english across the whole level isnt very good either. but better than mine. haha.
i just finished reading the 7-Eleven book. the chinese one. haha i just realised that it doesnt take me very long to finish a chinese book, but longer when i'm reading an english book. i love chinese. if i ever have a chance i'll choose to take chinese literature. haha. i love being a chinese cos i love chinese. does that make sense? oh wells.
oh yeah guiqi u better tag more on my blog i tell u. u never seem to come to my blog. hmmpf. and i go to ur blog so often. btw the choir camp photos are out. chermaine took them i think. yeah.

Part 2

2005-06-10T18:43:00.000-07:00

this is part 2 of today's entry. decided to be nice and not make u read a super duper long entry. esp when the font is so tiny. and orangey.
anw i'm really depressed now ok. maybe i can show her the report book tomorrow. but my grandma just had to tell my mum this morning that i just got my report book and she would like to see it. cant she wait for me to show my mum tomorrow when my father is back and then my mum wont scold me cos my father is there too and yeah he'll defend me. i love my father.
the room is in a mess now. the room is in a mess now. the room is in a mess now. the room is in a mess now. the room is in a mess now. the room is in a mess now. the room is in a mess now. the room is in a mess now. the room is in a mess now. but i wont do anything about it. cos it was not me who did that.
anw, i love using 'anw'.
ok i really gtg now. stupid sis wants to use the computer. hmmpf. pissed off at her cos she copied everything i haf on my blog. she used the same template as me and she put music on her blog just cos i put music on mine. she whined for me to teach her. hmmpf.

2005-06-10T18:29:00.000-07:00

heyz.
just came back from east coast. went there to cycle. again. it's the second time in this 2 weeks. oh wow. anw i guess if i go there a few more times i'll be officially promoted to a shade darker or sth. how exciting. i love to speed and feel the 'cool, ocean breeze blow gently into my sweaty face'. so cliche. hahax.
it's like 6 o'clock now. there's 'the simpsons' showing now. but i guess i'll skip it.
anw, i'm like really worried about showing my mum the report book. i'm a failure mann. my marks are like so sucky. guiqi and xinqi pro lah. win me by like 0.6 sth can. anw shall not care about them for now. lemme just concentrate on being depressed. i really really hope my mum will understand. really. i can swear if u let me do the PTs and exams again i'll do just as badly. that's me. wait. that doesnt make sense. for the papers the teachers haf already gone thru them, so i dont see why i'll do just as badly. after all, i will know the answers roughly already. ok so that doesnt work out. why dont i tell her that that was already the best that i can perform. on my own. as in my mum and dad dont really help me in my work. my dad is abroad most of the time. not his fault. and my mum, she's mostly at work, or at church on Sundays, and even if i ask her about maths or english or science she wont be able to teach me. she's only able to teach me chinese. and u know the type of things we learn in school now. totally different from what my mum used to learn back then. our curriculum now is supposed to be creative and all-rounded and whatnot. so i dun think she'll be able to help much. my uncle is abroad. my grandparents definitely wont be able to help me much. they're illiterate. and of course not my sis. she's only P5. yeah so i ask my friends. which explains the high phone bills. anw as i was saying, i'll tell my mum this is the best i can do. i did everything myself. doesnt sound very convincing though. or maybe i should just throw the report on the table and she can just read it while i go away. i dunno.
so i shall stop blogging about the report thing. i bet my mum will get upset. and i bet she's gonna say,"Well, this is what u got. u dun work hard u dun have a good future, it's not my business. u choose to have this kind of results i cant do anything. u think this is good enough, that's ur problem...blah blah blah." i know my mum. too well. i hate it when she gives me this treatment. i really hate it.

2005-06-08T19:39:00.000-07:00

Hey... sorry i didnt update my blog for so long... was so caught up in the designing of me bloggie. i dont want another blog under construction. hehheh. anw i did this blog all by myself. nice right. ok i admit it isnt as nice and there is sth wrong with the position of the entries, but gimme me some time to figure out wat's wrong and correct it ok. this is already very good, compared to the unknowntkpy blog. that one doesnt have a tag-box or a nice template. nor a song.
anw all those ppl who had linked my blog, the unknowntkpy blog pls change ok. i dont wanna see the unknown tkpy blog anymore. it's ruined by all those html codes down there. oh wait. maybe i can fix the blog and put a nice BG and song, and so i'll have the unknown tkpy blog with tag-box and song and watnot, and i can keep the wonderfully-insightful entries down there. oh yeah.
but i reckon i'll need loads of time. cos i am an IT-idiot. (:
btw i bought a book yesterday at Popular. cos it was my sis' bdae, and she wanted a book called "Cuore", and i wanted to buy that for her, so we went there and we found out that for that series of book, there was a promotion or sth and if u bought 2 books u get a book free. so my sis chose her book, and granma said might as well buy another book and then we can get a book free (wat logic... but anw) , yeah anw the second book, my sis chose the 'arabian nights' stories and she let me choose the free third book for myself cos she got a pressie too on my bdae. and she thought i shld have one on her bdae just to be fair. i chose the chinese version of Jane Eyre. so cool rite? but it's a small book. and it's pink. anw i think the most important thingo is the story itself. but the words are printed vertically, like those books u see in those ancient chinese movies. very hard to read. am i making sense? maybe i'm not cos i am HUNGRY. i havent taken my dinner yet.
oh yeah for the chinese book reviews, i just browsed through some books i found in Popular yesterday. thought they were nice. the book were sha1 mo4 cai3 hong2 and ting1 qing1 chun1 zai4 ku1 qi4 by You2 Jin1. oh man. i wish i were able to type in chinese characters. see wat happened. anw they were so ex. $10.50 mann. hey if any kind soul out there would like to donate or buy me the book i would greatly appreciate it.

i want the books so badly.

hi

2005-06-07T00:47:00.000-07:00

hi just let me try sth out first